life starts at 3.30 a.m

eeeeeeeeeeuuuuuuuwwww....now nih da buka sekolah...and a new chapter for me..as a servant of Allah s.w.t, a wife to my so called bff, a daughter to my parent and MIL...and a young mother to my not so little anymore..asilah amani...the first day of taking amani back to Mersing, i did say to my mother..."mak, kalau macam ni ramai2 pun takpelah...geram kat baby.." and my mother replied"jgn ckp dulu..mak nak tgk" sarcastically OK...

And the first day was AWESOME...pandang anak tak puas..every single minute i spent playing with her fingers....belek2 hidung, mata and what knot...sronok sangat..The third day...I went into the kitchen, i started to realise that i have plenty of work to do...i checked the laundry...OMG...The workload is mounting...i went panic, not knowing where to start...started thinking of getting a bibik...tried to look at the pros and cons....

Then i slapped my forehead..I need to do this(2x)....masa tula..nak layan baby...teringat dapur..buat keje umah, sapu bla2..si kenit menangis..nak mandi tgh shampoo..dgr die menangis.....n she didn't want direct bf..bile pegi kdc..then die lupe and i think merajuk kot..(ada ke baby merajuk...drama lots)...she cried and cried...i did all the jogets and aerobiks nak buat die diam...masuk buai tak nak..play pen taknak....dukung duduk taknak...dukung berdiri saja taknak..the moment i started joget...then she became silent...

But alhamdulillah these few days, after performing solat hajat and tahajud, taking care of babies is much easier.....my baby now da direct bf...and most important thing is nak tdurkan die sangat2 senang..need not to do all the jogets and aerobiks...at the night time, sgt2 jarang untuk dengar die menangis2 ke ape...once in a while yes....tapi tak selalu...tapi satu benda yg aku perasan ialah..every 3 a.m in the morning, she'll wake up and babbling like there's no tomorrow....balallalalblabalabalbaaa.......and i normally curi tidur2 ayam until 3.30 a.m to start my working shift. and the moment i woke up, i won't be sleeping anymore after that...so terusla buat laundry and several preparations especially when it comes to keeping stock of her food supply...before direct bf, i managed to suppress 5-7 oz at each pumping session..but now 2-3 oz at a time je...i think the food supply is decreasing..from 8-5 bekalkan pada pengasuh 15oz pun tak cukup....but i'll do my best....

the disadvantage is when i actually wake up to bf my little asilah, i envy the sleeping soundly man next to me....huissshhh..rase nak kejut jer...hahahha...with the presence of our princess, there are major changes in life... to be honest i am TIRED but these are the things that i really love to do...