Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Akhirnyaaaaaaa....

Dunno how to express with words..i am finally a MOM..mother.mummy..umi..whatever the name is..i am sooo delighted..sgt suka sgt happy sgt tak tau nk cakap mcm mane..so this is how it feels to be a mother..
Inilah ceritanye..
We have been married for two years..8 dec 2007..(one day b4 my bday) and that was the greatest bday gift ever..staying together, going thru ups and downs...He was a recruitment consultant and i was a chemist on that particular time..My nature of work does not confide me to get pregnant on that particular time...n to be honest we do feel that economically we were not ready...so we decided not to have one until I finally settled down as a government servant in 2009...

Life was hard back then..sorang dok mersing sorang dok pasir gudang...tp msh lg bersyukur sebab ramai lagi yang jauh berbanding kitorg ni..we wanted a child so badly....been praying day n night...pregnancy test mmg da byk gile..org da sibuk bertanye..bile lagi?kenapa tolak rezeki tuhan...and kitorg buat silent mode je...or jawapannye Insya Allah....

So, december yg lepas, we decided to go for medical check up..both of us...and we went to the medical officer to ask for advices..alhamdulillah dua2 ok...tp biasela gula terlebih, kolestrol blabla...hehhehe
that's not the point..ok2, back to the story rezeki blm ada lg..

I did ask the medical officer, I will have to attend a course diploma pendidikan end of 2010....(padahal tak dapat surat lg ok)hehehe..ikut instinct je..dip ed tu nanti kene pegi evrytime cuti sekolah selama 2 taun...so kalau waktu ni br nk pregnant takut tak leh nak commit blaja..

So doc pun ckap boleh, ada care..he gave us the options...so kitorg berulang alik ke hospital selama beberapa bulan, scan injections bla bla bla...alhamdulillah February dapatlah rezeki...after one week dapat tau pregnant husband pun dapat keje dekat di mersing...so anak ni mmg rezeki kan..kire double bonus awal taun ni....

Alhamdulillah due sepatutnya 26/10/10(sepatutnye hari ni)..tp we both decided to go for induction delivery at 38 weeks because of two reasons 1) HIGH BP start dpd 36 weeks smpai naik ke 160/90...phewwww....2) diploma pendidikan is scheduled to be started at 22nov 2010..so i will hv 1month plus for the confinement period..at least la....after smyg hajat, istikharah n taubat whatso ever...we went to the clinic on the 9th October 2010 as suggested by the doctor....(die kata untung2 dapat 101010)..hehhehe...tp tak harap cume mintak2 trus 9/10 jugak bersalin...

9th October 2010
9.00 am : daftar di kaunter..immediately kene salin baju n what knot n kene get ready for the first induction..
               bersalin serah diri ni lain macam sikit..sebab da siap practise pushing dari rumah..hahha
9.30 am : Doc masukkan ubat....huhu..sakit ye tuan2 dn puan2 but it's bearable la..berbanding dgn sakit
               bersalin sebenar..hehhe
10.00 am - 2 pm : Since clinic cam kosong je, dapat la bilik sorang2...harga di Johor Maternity Kluang ni sgt
                            la affordable ye...contraction tak terasa sgt..baru sikit2...n me and hub mcm separuh
                           bercuti siap tgk sukan komanwel bagai..hehhe..but poor hubby sibuk dgn lappy buat keje2
                           mana yang boleh
6.00 pm : the in laws datang n melawat...ubat tu biasanye akan sakit after 6hours but once in a while je ada
               rase sakit
10.00 pm : buat ctg, jantng baby ok, contraction pun ada.. tp 7 minutea to 8 minutes interval..nurse
                 cakap kalau tak tetap maksudnye sakit pasal ubat...
1.00 am : mase ni sakit da mcm ape dah....tuhan je yg tau..tapi masih bley tersenyum la..hehehhe...me  n hub
               tak henti2 recite ape yg patut.....tertdo terjaga zikir balik...husband sgt positive..dia cakap esok pg
               bersalin..i said amin..wat ctg. contraction masih rase sakitnyer..nurse cakap akak rase ptg awak
               bersalin la...tp lom cek opening lg..after vcheck opening..no improvement..still one cm..i was like
               HAAAA?!!!takde opening?kalau da ade 2cm or 3cm opening ,leh la drip n bajet 1cm for 1 hour
               petang bersalin but nope..kene tambah dose induce lagi the next morning....

10th October 2010

8.30 am : induce 2 biji proksin(btul ke tak spelling tuh)..tak sakit sampai la
3,00 pm : ..sakit2..andak, mak ngn ngah datang visit petang tuh..so hilanglah sakit kejap dok bergembira
               ngan anak sedara..bile diorg da balik, sakit2 balik.huhuhuh.
3,30 pm : wat ctg lagi.jtg baby ok...contraction da kuat da..bile timing sendiri rasenye da 3-4 minutes
               interval....nurse cakap kalau awk bersalin mlm ni, esok kluar, akak tak sempat jumpe awak..sbb
               akak cuti esok..owh(ye saya nk bersalin mlm ini.dalam hati la kan).so cek opening lg, I was praying
               n surprisingly the opening masih lagi stagnant at 1cm...Ya Allah....besarnye ujian..
               Friends kept on calling, da bersalin?macam mane?sms jgn ckp la....sampai ke malam n pg esoknye
               contractions but still 1 cm opening..

11h October 2010

8.30 am : tanye ngan doc, nk operate ke hape? Doc Luckmal cakap relax dulu..kite try one last time.Alang2
               nyeluk pekasam biar sampai ke pangkal lengan.Induce for the last time
2.oo pm : contractions2....n all of a sudden aroun 1pm...rase mcm basah.. I was like ape ni???takkan tak
                 dpt nk rase g toilet kot..but then air kluar lagi..hmm..ok..i think it's air ketuban la..bgtau hubby..he
                 called the nurse n doc...doc dtg lambat sikit sbb byk delivery yang die tgh sambut..(yang masuk
                skali induce 9/10 sume telah selamat bersalin ye..)
5.00 pm : masuk labour room n cek lagi....erm doc kata air ketuban da pecah..so die pchkan terus yg
                balance2 tuh n he checked the opening...still 1cm....nak rase sedih ke apa tatau nk cakap..so he
                said bley kalau nk try drip tp chances 50-50 sebab biasenye drip start mase 2cm-3cm..paling
                lewat 10 pm operation.. dia kata kalau nk operate terus 6pm dia akan buat..waterbag da pecah,
                so within 24 hours baby kene kluar takut jangkitan kuman..so air ketuban still colorless..means
                baby tak poo poo lagi kt dalam la...katanye, .i'll be in my office.you fikir2 kan dulu..so we called
                 the family members to inform that we had decided for the operation trus at 6pm..sume kata
                terpulangla..
5.30 pm : I was crying non stop...sbb tak sgka kene operate...me practising all the pushings and breathing
                techniques tetibe kene operate...but anything for u little baby..
5.45 pm : masuk OT....injection kat blkg...doc suruh angkat kaki kanan..bley angkat lg....angkat kaki kiri da
                berat da..few seconds later kaki kanan takle angkat..tp jari kaki masih leh gerak...tp yg
                menyesalnye sebab sy tdur ye sepanjang operation...so tak dengar bby nangis..tapi
                masalahnya..takut sendiri panik bile sedar sepanjang operation
7.15 pm : Beratnye mate..I was looking around..blurry..i was already in my room..hubby, stood beside
                me..mata berair and he said 'semuanye da selamat syg"..i said "alhamdulillah..ank kite cukup jari
                tgn kaki semua bang?"...husband ckp sume cukup sempurna..n i fell asleep again...kaki masih
                kebas2..malam kakak, mak abang sume dtg..tak larat sgt badan ni..nurse dtg tunjuk
                baby...sempatla pgg dahi n cium dahi die..

After the operation..stay 2 hari kat hospital..then discharged hari rabu..lepas lahirkan asilah amani ni, walaupun tak dapat bersalin secara normal tp ada dua benda yg sgt2 perlu diingat :
1) Betapa pentingnya kehadiran suami++ all the support yg die bagi walaupun towards the end operation jugak tp kata2 semangt yg diberi sgt2 la priceless.....takle nk describe mcm mn...so kene jdik isteri solehah pasni
2) Betapa besarnye pengorbanan seorang ibu..dan betapa ibu operlu dihormati tak kisahla ibu sendiri mahupun ibu mertua....walau apa sekalipun yg kita lakukan takkan dapat balas


Meet our lil precious Asilah Amani binti Mohd Zamani

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