the greatest years i've had

8/9 Disember 2007~8/9 Disember 2011

These two important dates..most important dates in my life...one is nikah and the other one is majlis di sebelah zam and not to forget the day i was born..Syukur alhamdulillah..It has been 4 years of getting married and many many many more years to come InsyaAllah...sehingga ajal tiba..amin amin ya rabbal alamin..Guess hub will not be reading this because he's not into blogs and if he does, these are  the things that i want him to know without me telling him....

You are the man for me....You are so resilient, calm and cool when i bombard you with some killer questions yang rasenya kalau tanya orang lain, dah lama aku kene tinggal...You understand me, accept me the way i am...you are my best friend that's why i don't really need one when i'm with you..(tak kisahla walaupun awak tak ingat byk perkara).I'm simply being me...membebel, cepat marah, sometimes tak rasional pun, i am no hypocrite in front of you..because deep down inside i know you will understand. I don't really try to impress you with my coookings, you impressed me by saying, sedapnya syg masak....i know i don't because takde la sibuk nak ambil tahu sgt mknn kgmaran and what knot..(i know i'm bad..shoot me)...

You are my captain "boleh"....sebab tak pernah cakap tak boleh...even if you're in pain, ajak ke mana-mana, jawapannya mesti boleh....nak buat itu, buat ini, semuanya jawapannya boleh..walaupun kadang2 cakap boleh tapi tak buat pun, tapi takpelah....sentiasa cuba menyenangkan hati isteri..family pun sama,you help everyone whenever you can..(unless you are sleeping..hehe)

i really hate cats but you love cats so much...i love taking pictures, you feel odd when you are holding a camera, you love hands on experience, i love my books, i love to clean up the house, you love to snore..hehhe(that's not the point), the point is that, we are so different, and that makes us both...   

and for two years, we are there for each other waiting for our little one(sorry asilah, this entry is meant for abah and mummy, so you will not be highlighted that much..hehhe)..we know what we had faced throughout the journey was not easy......going back and forth, ups and downs, lots of arguments, different ideologies, we are looking at things at different perspectives which sometimes it becomes a so-called brainstorming session and later it becomes a debate session

but to wake up and look at you in the morning, still there for me, that is the nicest feeling ever...

Happy 4th anniversary.....i love you so much...both of you...Allah makbulkan doa saya...alhamdulillah atas nikmat yang tak terperi...

:):):)

Not as easy as i thought...

Going through a postgraduate diploma of education(pgde) isn't as easy as i thought...throughout the process, there are ups and downs...sads and pains, teary eyes...so am i or am i not ready to further my masters degree is now questionable...I really salute those who furthered their studies..my sspians friends..kaem (still in the process of getting her phd) and dr. asilah, i must say, think that she has completed hers this year..applause...that requires a lot of patience, sacrifices, hardwork, determination, perseverance....i am not sure whether i have that in me....Really hope that This Maal Hijrah will be a great start of me finding myself again...Ya Allah Ya rabbi, You know What is best for me, What is there for me, What the future awaits me...show me some guidance, to You shall i repent and to You shall i return...Allahu Akbar

she's a big girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This entry is more to pictures rather than my babblingsssss....enjoy

last year's october ....poor hubby..letih sgt..huhuhu

in the operation theatre

tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

sekarang ni, she has soo many agendas in mind..check out her latest activities...



alhamdulillah Ya Allah..:)))time flies..right?

It's asilah's birthday!!!!!!!

Dear Asilah,

Happy birthday sayang mummy and abah. We really want to tell you that we are soo complete with you by our sides.We first decide to give you a present on your birthday but we think that you do not know how to appreciate things yet(mana taknya, at 1 year old you are like throwing everything including abah's blackberry..abah is so kind kan???) .So mummy decided to write something for you to read in your album when you're able to start reading.Dear, for your information,we weren't having an easy path to have you in our lives.. going back and forth from Mersing to Pantai Medical Centre Batu Pahat for med check ups and consultations. Your doctor was such a sweet handsome guy. Dr Leow Chin Her.His way of giving consultations is encouraging but the only reason we didn't decide to have a delivery in batu pahat is because of the distance. So decided to go to Johor Maternity Kluang after 5 months check up...Nevertheless, the doctor in Johor Maternity was a great choice either. Doc Luckmal Hakim, my fav gynaechologist .For your information, Mummy had so much to face and deal with the pregnancy for the first 5 months. Abah had the experience of being a nurse at home. and i tell u he is the bestest nurse i ever had. I vomited almost 10 times a day and there was nothing left but the gastric juices...I thought it was a mindset but maybe it was controlled by the subconcious mind part.hehhe.feel like being a doctor now..hheheout of nowhere, it went out again and again and again.. I remembered the only thing i could possibly eat was biskut cap ping pong crackers and glucose. But in order to ensure that you are healthy in my tummy, i had almost 6 supplements every single day..told you that abah was the best male nurse ever. He yelled" Open your mouth or else...."...No la, he came( I was pura-pura tdo like penat sangat) and said "Yang, makan ni.....untuk anak kan," And because of YOU dear, i swallowed all of these, sometimes all AT ONCE...like 3 teguk air..am now an expert ok..

1. transfer factor 4life(good for immune system mummy n baby)

2. Vitamin C (we wanted u to have nice, smooth skin, not like mine)..lol

3. Calcium( for you to have stronger bones)

4. Folic Acid ( for your brain development)

5. Neurogain(for the nerve system..neurons..neurons)

6. Obimin (is a must- package of nutrients inside)

I would love to give some additions to the list but i didn't....(over kan)..and we were so eager to wait for the next check ups and some of your pictures were printed out for us to cium2 and tgk2 during free time...

You were so comel dear...i remembered at 3 months check up, doctor said you were so active playing with your fingers...you were like counting days and money..erkk...and at 7months check up you were showing a thumb up maybe to show that it was cozy in there...

"baby keluar ikut tingkap" that suits you well.. I didn't manage to have a normal delivery because

1. high blood pressure since 36 weeks... 

 2. i need to attend kursus starting from 26 november 2010..it's a tough decision dear. It wasn't easy because it's between career and you....i wanted to have an earlier confirmation so i couldn't let the kursus go just like that. If a waited until the real EDD, i would not be able to go to my course and it is only offered every 2-3 years. So i did perform solat hajat, and zikr with abah to decide for an induction labor at 38 weeks. We woudn't be so brave if you are not matured enough...We had faith in Allah for showing us the right way...Tawakkal and we were there for each other..So on 9th Oct, abah and I went for induction labor..contractions Masya Allah sakitnya....Your father was performing solat again and again and again to asking Allah to reduce the contractions and a safe journey of yours. Meanwhile i had sleepless nights, recited zikr, all the surahs and on the 3rd day, watebag pecah and the dilation is only 1.5cm. Doctor said even if he induced (yang cucuk kat tgn-mummy tak ingat ape..that's y i want you to be a doctor..heheh), untuk dilate hingga ke 10cm is 50-50...hence we decided to go for an operation....Abah was there looking at mummy in the operating theatre and he was reciting yassin all the way.....

The thing is that, tak kisahlah ape pun yang mummy and abah lalui before this, what's important is the future...be good ya sayang..jadi hamba, anak, cucu yang solehah....jangan garang sgt..(you are so garang now...) and mummy and abah always want the best out of you...We'll try to provide you the needs..and we hope we do not spoil you..bersederhana dalam banyak perkara....we love you sayang..

p/s : I want to write more, but i really can't..have things to attend to...next post will be on pictures....

Happy birthday Asilah Amani binti mohd Zamani....:)))))))

i'm backkk!!!but not knowing for how long..:)

i've been neglecting my blog for months...i did try to squeeze in a few posts but they were left unfinished...it's syawal already..happy eid mubarak to everyone..i would like to ask for apologies..i am just an ordinary woman with a lot of wrongdoings..i am just me you know..ramadan had passed..as always, i'd always thought that i had not done enough during ramadan..was not making excuses but i'm still not used to be fully occupied entertaining my little princess and at the same time, to be abreast with the fadhilats of the ramadhan terawikhs...i guess i need more supplements to ensure i am all energetic to face the next ramadhans(if You allow me to Ya Allah..insya Allah...)

This hari raya was celebrated at hub's village. What i loved most during the first hari raya was after subuh prayers, we would recite the takbir together.I was amazed to see that everyone including the kids starting from such an early age, i mean no exceptionals to kids 3-4 years old in reciting those takbir..what a blissful moment we had...the best bonding time is the session when we were asking for forgiveness with each other.....everything was done in sincere and it was such a meaningful event to me...

At around 6 pm, we were driving back to my village...i was soooooo happy ( it's indescribable) as we got to gather and i think for the first time, we have a family photo with enough family members during hari raya(u know alternate turns and what knot). i don't care if we were not in our best dresses....My family is not that excited when it comes to taking pictures unlike me....hehehe...

All and all, praises to Allah...for His blessings..

my family hub's side (this was last year)hehhe>.this year memg tak sempat

 my side..........................................can't wait for the next gathering..yippie yeay!

i didn't blog about my trip to bandung..i'll blog about it later.....:)..

xoxo..

updates updates......

currently at school..waiting for the next period...yeah yeah..i know i'm taking a 10 minutes off..i've been going back and forth to the office to settle a few things...claims...forms and what knot...phew...hopefully it will be cleared before the_________...ok2..i'm telling you now..i'm going to bandung in july and singapore in september.....i am super excited just because it has been ages since our last holidays...i've visited several countries..russia..kyrgyztan dubai airport..india airport (atas ehsan kementerian pendidikan to join the International Festival Young talents)..i was in form 2...going for a trip yet i didn't bring so much money...remember i told you that life was hard back then..It's fresh in mind that the guess watch in Dubai is only 16 usd..but since i only brought 100 usd for a week trip...of course it is not affordable for me. and didenda di russia kerana takda visa coz ade tukar terminal..denda alone is 25usd..panjang ceritanya..takpelah, cite lame.sambung balik..i've gone to Singapore for a business trip in Science Park 2...tapi i didn't have the time to jalan2...but this time....so surreal i tell u...full for jalan2 and shopping....heheheee...the bestest part is my little princess will be joining me for the whole trip..hehehhe..but of course i have to be ready for any 'discrepant' events...hehheheheh...she of course will have her poo poo time whenever she likes...but it's ok..i've added those into my things i love to do list...lol.......i have new plannings in mind...i feel like pursuing my degree...to masters and phd....hopefully in 2014 because have to finish my postgrad dip of education by 2013 and hope to have asilah's sister/brother in the same year...perform haj in 2015 (earlier than that i hope)....buy my dream car in 2017...and build a house before 2020...ops..i have to go to class..till then..:)

back to school mode>>

..i'm back to school..AGAIN!!it's pretty much different from the university life because i didn't really put my heart and soul throughout the process..i've so many things in mind...what should be done..it's a situation where my mind is processing or to be exact rearranging things according to the its priorities..but still i am me...the studies should be taken care of at the first place, while i am thinking how's my baby doing at home...what are the developments that i've missed in these 3 days....the body is here..but the mind is elsewhere...

This morning , i have this lecture of instructional media as a resource in teaching if iam not mistaken delivered by Dr. Kamal Basha..It's an interesting topic and he encouraged teachers to use the media as a teaching aid. He asked to us to make a drawing based on several descriptions of a giant tiger fish...The descriptions are : 

sharp teeth, bulging eyes, brown spots on its scales...and our drawings came up like these.......

• drawing by hamdan :mrsm pekan..hehhe..too much of cartoons
  
  
  
• mine: mrsm mersing........just look at the lips..
  
  
  
• dayah's : mrsm mersing....giant tiger fish dgn penyakit kusta
  
  
  
• jijie : mrsm pekan.....mata mascara tak tahan
  
  
  
• fitri's : giant tiger fish species mutant
  
  
  
• hadi's : ini buntal jadian

will update later on the classes n assignments...till then

my babblingssssss

I've been super duper busy lately (like i am the prime minister lol)..End of March, i was not around, was sent to Jawi for a kursus pemantapan kimia...and i was struggling to catch up things at school...It's not easy actually..When things are procrastinated several times, to initiate the working process itself is harder than you can ever imagine...mindsets...It's all because of me...I didn't remember when i started procrastinating things..i think back in 1998....when i was younger, my mother once told me that i always finished my homework right after school...so i think it's around 1.30pm before i went to sekolah agama...but now i've always said to myself that i still got time..knock on my head..toing toing(like Ms Vasantha always said-one of my former teacher..oh how i missed her)..

hm.....i didn't update about my wrist last check up...the doctor said it is called the bone overgrowth....i didn't realise that fractured wrist before this..i'm too strong to detect the pain..huahuahua..i thought it was nothing...my case will be forwarded to the pakar..so that they can carry out the next procedures....i am not ready to undergo any operation..not yet..because asilah needs me...maybe i'll wait until she can walk by herself..then i'll pursue my treatment..still procrastinating ha....knock on my head again.....toing toing toing....

here is my x-ray

people asked me..aren't u scared??i said no...why?i don't know..perhaps..i have the operation experience...even it involves only the wrist..i'm gonna ask for sedative..is that allowed?can't bear looking at the skin being cut inbto pieces(ok ok that sounds exaggerate)..hehhe

as for my not so little anymore asilah....she's been progressing well...when i'm looking at her, i can imagine the agendas she has in mind..whoa..she knows how to cungkil my eye already..take my handphone when i'm talking..tarik2 my baju when she desperately needs her food supply..and since she's half a year now..she is introduced to her new bestest friend--> the solid food (like i do...food and I are inseparable you know..shu shu go away..i need to slim down)..and fyi i've said that gazillion times already..

here's the latest picture of asilah amani

suke nganga mulut when i snapped picture

gelak jgn tak gelak

 hi buddy..luckily she loves her playpen...

Dear asilah...

don't grow up so fast la sayang..takut mummy tak keep track of your development

and please be good yeah...mummy and abah loves you so much..xoxo. we are sorry for not entertaining u that well...but we are trying our best...jd anak,hamba, cucu yang solehah ye sayang...

LIFE IS GREAT, RIGHT?Thanks Allah

human trafficking...:((((

Human trafficking is a modern way of slavery in which they(humans) are illegally traded for the purpose of sexual exploitation..forced labor...this is what i've read from the wikipedia...but reading the headline for today's newspaper, I was like babies for sale????such an absurd idea to sell babies..What's the purpose of selling babies?Wanting to have a child yet choosing the wrong way of having it...come on..why is it so hard to follow procedures..there's nothing to be afraid of..except the criteria is not there..i mean to be parents......It's a great intention to have a baby to be taken care of but there are ways of getting one.welfare departments are always welcoming the foster parents to register but of course dealing with the agencies might take some time..but it's worth waiting kan...i am emotionally affected with this current issue..maybe because i am a mother now...being a mother has changed the entire me..hmmmm.............

flashback..teringat pulak bile jauh2 ni..huhuuh

                                                                     you light up my life..
                                                              you give me hope..to carry on...
                                                                    you light up my days..

                                                               and fill my nights with songs...

 waktu tunang....

 first honeymoon to Sabah(sponsored by company)hehhee

candle light dinner kat jb...

Sunway Pyramid..

mersing...tepi sungai

family dinner



berjaya tioman



dalam feri ke pulau tioman

 dapat mak lagi satu..hehehe..now i have two mothers

                             I am a wife.....

i am a teacher

and i am a mother......how time flies hehehehe....

-student-chemist-teacher-________????a psychologist perhaps...I Wish!!





lots of catching ups to do...

i had been super duper busy lately....i was involved in the spm registration for this year...i was sent to penang to attend a course...i've got to train my basketball team..had to cope with the secretary's job in school...my life had been chaotic....sometimes i do feel that i failed to manage things at once....am not a multi tasking person i guess..had to sort things out one by one...which is time consuming and it ends up unfinished at the end..but ya..that's life....full of challenges...The bestest thing of all is FAMILY DINNER!!!!!!
Last yeaR, i was the organizer..since hub was not able to take long leave..so we decided to organize our very first family day in Hotel Seri Malaysia in Mersing..so hub on and off joined our activities alternately with his current task at that moment..Well, this year..despite all the problems we had...alhamdulillah, we managed to organize a family dinner....Every year, we normally have barbeques at home or just a simple dinner at Prime City Hotel...this year the venue was Landmark Hotel..let the pictures do the talking yeah..

                                          the organizer- the 1st sister....cik awot....................,.

 unfortunately mak had to sit on a wheelchair due to unexpected athritis....walaupun sakit tetap sporting ye...

                                                                             ngah n k.ngah

                                                       orang jauh...yaying n abg d.........
                     hehhe..sorry, the picture was taken by my not so high pixel hp..hahhaha...so tak  
                      clear sgt la......................hehhehe..more pictures in facebook profile yeah...........

                         so..the earlier weekend, me, hub and asilah had a quick getaway to

                       KL ....we stayed at the Grand Bluewave Hotel in Shah Alam......enjoy the pics

                                                     asilah enjoying the arrival  after the long journey..

                                                   dinner at restoran tasik indah..if i'm not mistaken

breakfast..owh..i hate my eyebags..

on the 23rd Mac 2011, SPM results went out...i was one of the teacher incharged of giving the exam slips..i got to see different reactions of happy faces ..sadness...shocking experience...as for my side, and my previous experience..in any task/exam...what u give u get back..Allah is fair..He granted prayers of those who wanted it really bad.....I was not surprised with the faces..congratulations and good luck to my ex students..especially the only class i taught last year..Acturus...

                                                                the teachers----

              i am teaching pmr students this year..and chemistry form 4...i pray for the best results in the

               future.Bukakanlah dan terangkanlah hati pelajar2ku dalam menimba ilmu..Amin Ya

                                                                         Allah...................