self rewarding.

ada masenye kita rase down, we have the feeling of not being appreciated by others...not receiving any recognition..its ok..the only way o overcome the feeling is to reward yourself...i did some kind of huge expenses this month..of course with mr.hubby and some of it due to his approval....we bought ourselves something we needed so much.....

we wanted something relaxing and mobile since we travel a lot...( to kampungs most of the time ..hehhe)..duduk je seat ni confirm leh tertdo...sbb memg best.thumbs up to ogawa....and for the second purchase...we never thought that we needed this earlier but then it's irresistible...and we bought this

the foot master..it's somehing important to mr hubby....because i didn't have enough energy to give him a foot massage.his feet soo ebal i tell u....thus..TARAAAA.....for u dear.....hehhehe..

Early january, hub was so happy as the CELCOM by mail, gave him a present as a reward for his loyalty and a continuous feedback by calls...and he got a.......

blackberry torch 9800...weee..FOR FREE ok...i superlove + superhappy since i shouldn't have to buy an anniversary gift to him last year.talking about the anniversary gift, last week i was so unlucky...mr.hubby gave me a watch as an anni present..and i've LOST it..it's only 2 months old.i rarely took it off...but on that day, terbuka n tertinggal..and bling!!!da ade yg tolong amekkan...sobss. knowing him, i know he wouldn't get angry...knock on my head..so careless....

but the point is....it's important for us to reward ourselves sometimes yeah...but don't make it too often or u 'll go bald....

talking about career(huhuhu..seems so gigantic)...i've been teaching for 2 years....i am loving things i do every single day...may be this is what i am good at(at leas there's something hahah)..with our little sunshine with us....every moment is priceless, regardless of what happen everyday...thanks Allah...

life starts at 3.30 a.m

eeeeeeeeeeuuuuuuuwwww....now nih da buka sekolah...and a new chapter for me..as a servant of Allah s.w.t, a wife to my so called bff, a daughter to my parent and MIL...and a young mother to my not so little anymore..asilah amani...the first day of taking amani back to Mersing, i did say to my mother..."mak, kalau macam ni ramai2 pun takpelah...geram kat baby.." and my mother replied"jgn ckp dulu..mak nak tgk" sarcastically OK...

And the first day was AWESOME...pandang anak tak puas..every single minute i spent playing with her fingers....belek2 hidung, mata and what knot...sronok sangat..The third day...I went into the kitchen, i started to realise that i have plenty of work to do...i checked the laundry...OMG...The workload is mounting...i went panic, not knowing where to start...started thinking of getting a bibik...tried to look at the pros and cons....

Then i slapped my forehead..I need to do this(2x)....masa tula..nak layan baby...teringat dapur..buat keje umah, sapu bla2..si kenit menangis..nak mandi tgh shampoo..dgr die menangis.....n she didn't want direct bf..bile pegi kdc..then die lupe and i think merajuk kot..(ada ke baby merajuk...drama lots)...she cried and cried...i did all the jogets and aerobiks nak buat die diam...masuk buai tak nak..play pen taknak....dukung duduk taknak...dukung berdiri saja taknak..the moment i started joget...then she became silent...

But alhamdulillah these few days, after performing solat hajat and tahajud, taking care of babies is much easier.....my baby now da direct bf...and most important thing is nak tdurkan die sangat2 senang..need not to do all the jogets and aerobiks...at the night time, sgt2 jarang untuk dengar die menangis2 ke ape...once in a while yes....tapi tak selalu...tapi satu benda yg aku perasan ialah..every 3 a.m in the morning, she'll wake up and babbling like there's no tomorrow....balallalalblabalabalbaaa.......and i normally curi tidur2 ayam until 3.30 a.m to start my working shift. and the moment i woke up, i won't be sleeping anymore after that...so terusla buat laundry and several preparations especially when it comes to keeping stock of her food supply...before direct bf, i managed to suppress 5-7 oz at each pumping session..but now 2-3 oz at a time je...i think the food supply is decreasing..from 8-5 bekalkan pada pengasuh 15oz pun tak cukup....but i'll do my best....

the disadvantage is when i actually wake up to bf my little asilah, i envy the sleeping soundly man next to me....huissshhh..rase nak kejut jer...hahahha...with the presence of our princess, there are major changes in life... to be honest i am TIRED but these are the things that i really love to do...